Weekend Eating Pitfall

    The past three weekends I have really struggled with my eating on the weekends. It started with a binge I went on which resulted in me feeling guilty and beating myself up like I too often do. The following weekend I didn't binge but still didn't eat right. The first part of this week I was extremely down--feeling like a failure and for some reason feeling really vulnerable.   All those feelings of fear and insecurity kept creeping back in (will write more about that in another post). I've been as open and honest as I can be throughout my journey but admit I am getting lax about writing everything down that I eat (primarily on the weekends). I want to reach my goals and want to be in onederland at my next assessment but if I keep slipping up on my eating habits then that isn't going to help me get to where I want to be. So as this weekend got closer I was getting a little leery about how I would do. I talked to Kyle about it and he is going to look at my food journal on Monday but also he wanted me to post my food journal. First thought was ummm.....NO, but here I am getting ready to post it.  All along one of the key things that has helped me lose 130lbs is accountability. So for the next 4 weekends I am going to record everything I eat and drink and post it on here where anyone who wants to can see. SCARY!!  I just wish I had made up my mind I was going to post it before I ate like crap this weekend! But I guess that's the whole point.   So here goes nothing:

First a little explanation of my schedule this weekend. I attended a scrapbooking event from Friday 7pm-midnight and Saturday 9am-midnight. Our table was in the kitchen and surrounded by snacks so the majority of the weekend I was in the Biggest Loser temptation room.  But I know it's up to me what goes into my mouth and what stays out. I just didn't do that great with keeping stuff out.

And I might as well put in that my daily nutrition goals are 1500 cal, 40% protein, 40% carbs, 20% fats and drink128 oz water


Friday, March 8
Breakfast (6:15am): 1 egg, 1 slice bacon, 1 slice reduced fat pepper jack cheese, hot chocolate (my hot chocolate is 8oz skim milk with 3 spoonfuls chocolate and 1 spoonful vanilla protein powder)
Lunch (11:50am): (Pitch in at work for co-worker): 14 baked scoops, about 1/4 c each black bean and corn salsa and mexican dip, small piece mexican crescent roll ring (about 1/2 crescent roll with ground beef, taco seasoning and shredded cheese), 8 grapes
Snack (3pm): 13 Special K Southwestern ranch crackers with 1 100 cal tuna salad pouch
Dinner (8pm): 1 slice Papa John's pepperoni pizza, salad with fat free Italian dressing, 8 cheddar cheese mini rice cakes, 44oz Diet Cherry Vanilla Coke, 2 chocolate chip walnut cookies,
Snack (throughout the rest of the evening): 1 slice Papa John's pepperoni pizza, split small piece of yellow cake (approx 1"x2") with lemon icing with Stacy. 2 mini kit kats

Total calories: 2005
Protein 21.2%, Carbs 44.3% Fats 34.5% water 128 oz

Saturday, March 9
Breakfast (9:20am): light strawberry greek yogurt with 1/4 c fruit and nut trail mix (I didn't touch the Jacks donuts that were brought in)
Lunch (1:30pm): 2 slices turkey and 2 slices ham on 2 slices wheat bread with swiss cheese, lettuce, tomato and mustard, about 2 tbsp chicken salad, tostitos, brownie
Dinner (7pm): 1 c chili w/oyster crackers, brownie, 44 oz Diet Cherry Vanilla Coke
Snacks (throughout the day: hopefully I didn't miss anything but I did a lot of grazing): small piece cake, probably about 1 to 1/2 cup tex mex chex mix, 5 mini kit kat bars, brownie,  about 1 oz cheese and 6 crackers

Total calories: 2244
 Protein 17.3%, Carbs 52.6% Fat 30.1% water 96 oz

Sunday, March 10
Breakfast (11am): Fiber plus mixed nut protein bar, apple (slept until after 10:30 and was needing something quick before heading to the gym)
Snack (1pm): 1/4 cup trail mix
Lunch (3pm): flatbread pizza, 44 oz Diet Cherry Vanilla Coke
Dinner (8pm): 6oz Tyson grilled and ready chicken breast on 2 sl 35 cal wheat bread with 1 slice reduced fat pepper jack cheese and plain greek yogurt instead of mayo, mixed green salad with cucumber, tomato, sprinkle of shredded cheese and turkey bacon bits, 2 tbsp fat free zesty Italian dressing
Snack (10pm):  was getting Toby a bowl of strawberry ice cream and had a spoonful. Wanted more so instead I got a bowl of my frozen Greek yogurt (Yoplait 100 cal lemon greek yogurt with 1 scoop vanilla protein powder) 

Total calories:  1423
Protein 33.5%, Carbs 41.4%, Fat 25.1%  water 64 oz  

There it is: my third weekend of eating like crap.  I'm going to try my best not to get down about it or beat myself up.  I just need to work harder next weekend to do better.  Okay I'm going to hit publish before I chicken out.