Facing the next challenge

            Tomorrow I will be participating in Mud Stash 2012 at Perfect North Slopes. I have been looking forward to this for a while now, but I am also pretty nervous.  It's a 5K with different obstacles (and lots of mud) throughout the 3.1 miles, or check out this link to see for yourself  http://perfectnorth.com/page.php?pID=34 .  In one of my first posts I wrote about fear holding me back and the little voice inside my head telling me I can't. It took me some time to decide to go for it and as the day is quickly approaching  I've been trying to calm my nerves. Why in the world is this making me so nervous?  I know I am afraid I won't be able to keep up with the rest of the New Castle Anytime Fitness team or that I will be holding others back. I have spent my entire life worrying about what others think about me and not wanting to let others down. I have also been so self conscious because of my size and how I look that I've let it hold me back from just letting loose and having fun. I'm not one to go out and do wild and crazy things....(well besides a few times in college but that's a whole other story).... I'm also worried about actually accomplishing the obstacles. I want to do well but can I really climb a rope ladder? Kyle assures me I will do fine and the only thing I will have trouble with are the monkey bars....hello??!!?? rope ladder, climbing  up and over things...I don't have a lot of upper body strength or lower for that matter.  But he's my trainer and I trust him and know that he would not set me up for failure and be completely honest with me if he didn't think I could do this. Now it's up to me to believe in myself to go out there, try my hardest and perhaps most importantly have fun and enjoy myself. Laugh when I fall as I'm sure there will be a lot of slipping and sliding going on. And if there are obstacles I cannot do, try it and move on. Don't beat myself up over it, feel like a failure or worry about what anyone else thinks. I'm doing this for me and no one else. 

 

To be continued.......